In surveys and consultations, writers and creatives openly share their fears and insecurities. This is a love letter to writers and anyone plagued with self-doubt, emotional traps and other creative blocks.
Is My Story Silly?
She asks if her ideas, her story is silly. I can’t answer that for her. Only she can. I see her as a miracle, a jewel, a precious creation. How can anything silly come out of that?
What I hear? Self-doubt and limiting self-beliefs likely based in criticism heard and internalized along the way? When you ask if your story is silly, dumb, stupid, say it out loud. My story is silly. How does that feel? Sound to you? Truth? I am silly. Really? Are you sure about that? Be careful what you say about yourself. Your spirit hears your every word.
Is My Story Worthy?
She asks if she should waste her time on the story — is it worthy? What I hear? Should I waste my time showing up for myself and my story? Am I worthy? Again, only she can answer that. When you’re visited by the muse and the story won’t leave you alone, there are mighty forces beyond you wanting this story manifested. If not by you, the story goes unwritten.
I Don’t Get It
A meltdown around the halfway point or Recommitment phase.
“This is too hard. I don’t get it. I can’t do it.”
I want to grab her by the shoulders to ground her back in the here-and-now and out of the past of other difficult times in her life. Instead, I encourage her to view what is happening to her in the light of the Universal Story. She’s being called to show up and do the work. Internal antagonists block her way. I ask her to reclaim her own individual power. Suddenly shining out from hiding and fear, the light of her spirit flickers. Hope seems to fill her body as she shakes her head and straightens her shoulders. She looks at me as if I’m not there as the truth of who she truly is reawakens. She exclaims how she’s never heard of such things. In her smile, I know she’s tapped into a truth she’s always know. She begins to remember again what once she knew for sure.
She is writing today because I asked her to commit to writing everyday. If her commitment to me helps her show up for herself, so be it. When we commit to others, our spirits are listening. When we let down ourselves by not valuing our commitment to ourselves, we hurt our own spirit.
She apologizes before she begins reading.
“It’s not very good. I haven’t written forever.
This is my first stab at writing again after years of doubt.
It’s rough. Not very good.”
Don’t ever apologize for yourself, for your writing. You’re showing up, doing the work. Hold tight to your own personal power. Don’t let the demons of doubt and poor self-worth overpower your deepest beliefs. Sure they may be hiding in the muck and gore of your backstory wound. The belief in your splendor lies there, too. You know it. At least your spirit does and is patiently, heartbreakingly patiently waiting for the day you remember, too.
What I understand now after having spent more than a year painstakingly healing my own backstory wound is how wrong I’ve been. I write in the Plot Whisperer books and now more recently in Boundless Creativity: A Spiritual Workbook for Overcoming Self-Doubt, Emotional Traps and Other Creative Blocksabout how the protagonist (and thus, the writer, too) reclaims her own personal power she relinquished along to way to a false belief system, betrayal, hurt, pain, criticism, judgment.
The Universal Story
The real strength lies, not only in your own personal power. Rather, your real strength and the source of all strength lies at the heart of the Universal Story — in the power of creativity.